I have been struggling with depression for years. I didn’t realize this until I was in my forties, when I was diagnosed. Looking back, it’s clear to see where I was struggling and I wish I could grab hold of that Julie’s hand and pull her out.
I wake to another morning. I think today the pain will surely end, but there is more. Where are You? Do You see me? Do You hear me? I look for a glimmer that tells me You are here. I can feel the silence.
I stumble through a day at work. I put on a happy face and smile. It is not an option to let anyone know my pain or to see any weakness.
Finally, back at home, I am glad to be away from people. I look forward to the escape of sleep. I don’t eat and climb into bed. I cry. It hurts, Father. I have never felt despair before, but I feel it now as it overwhelms my soul.
As I fall asleep, in the blackness I catch a small glimpse of light.
I know it’s You.
Jesus, teach me that even in the darkest places You will create light.
John 1:5: The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness doesn’t extinguish the light.
I love you back, sister-in-law.
You have been inside my I head I believe
I love you sister-in-law
Thinking of you in thoughts and prayer. I look forward to seeing you again. It’s great you are doing this blog! Love to you
Thank you for sharing your strength and hope.
Wow! That’s it, just WOW!
Not being in your shoes I have nothing to say except, “I’m here if you need me”.
Thank you for sharing. Very thought provoking!
Julie I have had you on my mind so many times over the past year, hate that Cancer is in your life! You are an amazing, strong women & know God is walking with you through all your treatments. So glad you started this blog. Prayers flowing from here friend.
Hang in there, keep up the fight! Depression and Cancer is a lot to handle, and you’re one strong woman, you can do this!! Thinking of you, and sending hugs.
You are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing! We are here for you as you have always been for us.
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